Wednesday, 25 June 2008

ok so I have not quite smoking yet

Who among us has suffered at the hands of addiction? Well maybe I shouldn't phrase it quite like that but bloody hell it is so hard to quit smoking this time. Lets get this straight, well maybe not , will power, I used to have it. In the past I could put a 20 a day habit behind me and suffer silently for years. I quit for 5, 2 and 15 years at a time (subconscious mind jibes in "a quitter never wins"). Dammit I am not a quitter, but I really really want to quit smoking soon, not just now. Hmm I think i need a cigarette.

I have cut down though. Aren't you proud of me. Is Aren't a word?

What else is going on? I have been checking my social networking sites more than once a month. I am going to try and keep up and check in 2 or 3 times a week, for as long as I can. I get fed up sometimes. Yea I like all the people who are on my sites but I reach a point where it's ahhhh, I am leaving town, well at least I am not logging into myspace for awhile. Nothing personal to anyone, but I need to be on my own.

Basically I am an urban hermit. Yes I go out to work, am sociable, teach classes, give uni tours and generally try to be outgoing and helpful. But something happens when I get home, it's like it's time to pull up the drawbridge and keep the marauding hordes at bay. Now don't get me wrong, I really enjoy going out, but when I am at home, that's it. I suppose if you have read any of my previous posts, now with just me and my lovely wife at home, it is fabulous. We pushed out the kids, step kids and grand kids, only problem is, like Stephen King said sometimes they come back, but at least it's only a visit, and they go to their own homes... after awhile. Doesn't mean I don't love them to the end of the earth, but grandpa is grumpy and raising the drawbridge, so get going quick, before he turns into a werewolf or something

Cruel aren't I? Maybe, or at 56 I know what I enjoy. I like revving up flight simulator x and flying gatwick to glasgow on my computer, or play console/computer games for hours, and yes occasionally going out with friends, unless it's a full moon that is.

I especillay enjoy doing what I am doing right now, at home, just finished a Terry Pratchett's Making Money, and posting on my blog.

Take care til next time